I came across a blog that had these questions. I wanted to do the same but as I sat down in front of my laptop and pondered, I decided otherwise.
This is a litte late but I have an explanation.
I didn’t feel like answering any of these questions.
And because I have been feeling a bit down over the last few days, this question stuck: “Why can’t people live without deception?”
A blog I have been following recently published a post on positivity and negativity and it made me remember a reflective article I made on the question, “If everything starts with a lie, what’s mine?”
I plan on posting that very article too, soon. I hope.
So from this day, and the 19 days after, I will tell you 20 lies I tell myself.
For a time, I was a pessimist. And perhaps, at times, I still am.
And though I tell my friends that I am fine, that I am not bothered by the judgments others say about me, I know I am not. I am a very transparent person. But I can be very secretive if I want to be, too.
Recent events in my life have tested my newfound positivity and worry-free attitude so I am doing this in hopes of being able to let go of the pride and ego that has long mocked me.
This is to finally say to myself that I have changed.
For the longest time, I had words to comfort me and I know this time they will not, too. I hope that you, my reader, will also reflect as I delve into my deepest thoughts and share intimate details about my life. The lies I tell myself may become reality after a time and some may not, but as previously mentioned, this chronicle is one for my own greater satisfaction.
Welcome to my world full of lies.